Chad Steenerson
“There was no particular significance to June 3, 1986 except as the day upon which I chose to end my own life. It seemed hardly soon enough to stop my misery, but I doubted the effectiveness of my course of action anyway. Regardless, I knew of no other way out of the pain, loneliness and utter misery I was in. And so that evening I sat in bed, with a note in hand ending with the words ‘I'm sorry,’ and a bottle of pills…”
Matthew Needham
“I put a bullet into the gun, put the barrel of the gun in the middle of my forehead, said a prayer, and then pulled the trigger to blow my brains out. I pulled the trigger but nothing happened… I was in tears and I was afraid because I thought that it was the end.”
Stan Borley
“There were times when I turned my anger inward and would find myself late at night sitting in my back yard pondering the idea of suicide. I knew that my drinking had a lot to do with how I felt but my attempts at quitting always failed.”
Andrea Do Santos
“I was so full of shame and self-hatred that I could no longer look at myself in the mirror. I counted out all my pills (medication for my bi-polar condition), and wrote a suicide note. I was ready to die when the phone rang…”
Dot McGinnis
“All I wanted to do was die. I remember that my family had to hide all of the knives and scissors from me because they feared that I'd try to commit suicide.”
SetCaptivesFree
“Then I ran out the door determined to run in front of a huge mac truck on the highway near where we lived… It was a really rainy stormy night all of a sudden. It was pouring rain… I would step out in front of a car and they would stop immediately because they would see me in their headlights. I finally gave up…”
Ricardo Santana
“I attempted many suicides between age 7 or 8 till around 13 years of age. But God had kept me from everyone of them… That late afternoon while I was in my bedroom I once again attempted suicide. I went out to the ledge of my third floor window and stepped out ready to jump.”
Tom Sprague
“I don't think it matters how or what brings us to the point of suicide, but there is a way out, if we'll trust Jesus Christ…”
Healing the Thorn
“I was not willing to share my burden with anyone for fear that my whole life would cave in around me, so my inner turmoil led me to other options of escape… I could not cope any longer and attempted suicide. Some Angel saved me that night after I had been deliberately speeding on a wet and dark night. On a bend in the road my car spun out of control across the path of an oncoming car and stopped a few centimetres in front of a large tree. My heart was racing and I felt God holding me in his hand encouraging me not to escape but to talk to someone.”
Abby Conley
“My parents had thrown me away, like trash. They simply could not be bothered with a child they did not want. My spirit broke… I tried very hard to take my life on two occasions.”
God’s Anointed
“My past is the perfect example of the words ‘messed up’. My life was a total wreck …attempted suicide quite a number of times…”
Susan Stafford
“Then one day I got raped and threatened with a knife, and just when I needed my friends most nobody cared. Then I found myself overdosing on diet pills. I wanted desperately to have an out of body experience and remain disoriented until my heart stopped. Immeasurable sorrow seemed to be my only certain destiny.”
“Marie”
”My friends noticed the change in me and asked me what was wrong, wanting desperately to help me. But they couldnt. Finally I had enough. I wanted to commit suicide. So I planned how to do it.”
Joe Robison (1)
“The family and children whom I loved SO much (and likewise)...GONE… How many times I had flirted with the thought of suicide.”
Leroy Hicks
“But the desire for a drink was stronger than I was. Alcohol had me; it was in control, so I would stop going to church and start drinking again. The devil would tempt me with thoughts of suicide…”
Greg Reinhardt
“The Holy Spirit was now showing me my sin … showing me what was right and wrong. Lustful thoughts stopped after I let God's power overcome them and I stopped fighting them myself. My suicidal thoughts have never returned. (Some time back, the suicidal thoughts had stopped but I now knew the evil power behind these thoughts had also been broken.)”
Lisa Walker
“I had to return to Y.D.C. for a psychological evaluation since I had tried to commit suicide. The psychologist said that my only problem was my family and I was released to live my life as I chose.”
Star Burch
“I was so emotionally drained from that relationship that the thoughts of suicide pressed me… Too many times, my life was put on the line for living in sin with them because I knew better. One ex made me want to commit suicide…”
Arthur Cummings (A.C. “da Preacha”)
“Within a year's time A.C. went from respectable war hero, to street thug/drug dealer, to a convict that landed in the Duval County Jail on several occasions. This lifestyle, coupled with A.C. trying to hide it from his father, Pastor Cummings, began to wear him down mentally and spiritually. So much so that at one point he even considered suicide.”
Ralph
“I saw people of all ages who committed suicide because for them life was not worth living anymore… During the years I was a Police Officer the suicide rate for Police Officers was the highest of any profession and alcoholism was second only to that of doctors.”
Steve Ridenour
“I was as unhappy with my life as I have ever been. I knew I was addicted, and I knew I couldn't quit. I sat there in the early morning hours with a gun to my head ready to end my addiction when I remembered my Grandmother telling me ‘Steven you don't take your own life, God will take you when He is ready for you.’”
Paul Nzau
“…she was H.I.V positive. When I asked her she told me it was true and she had known all along yet she had not told me. All hell broke loose and I started drinking heavily and contemplating suicide. I didn’t see any reason to live, the grave appeared peaceful and quiet and hence the perfect place to be.”
Olia (1)
“I could not understand why God allowed a demon to deceive me. I did not want to live anymore and started thinking of committing suicide. I could not bear my incessant agony. Then I realized that I could not even die because I would go to hell and be in even more pain for eternity.”
Brenda Helzer
“Kathrina went downhill fast; she was suicidal and began cutting herself, and dropped out of school. I started using methamphetamines (crank), vicodin, and valium. I was never sober. I was oblivious to my daughter's struggles…”
Lizzie Ann Troyer
“I considered suicide, or running away, but I thought I would go to hell for either of those options. I often wondered why I had to be born in the first place. I stuck it out, through my teen years, which I call the “dark ages”.
James Stacey
“Immediately … I knew they had left! I believe the demons – who do not like the name of Jesus being praised - were falling over each other to leave! I also believe the three movements represented a ‘nest’ of spirits being exorcised, and were demons of schizophrenia, a religious spirit and suicide.”